Cleaning House
Step 4: Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves. Before I began my Fourth Step Inventory, I was so angry and bitter at everyone. I blamed everyone for my problems. I had the belief if they had just treated me better, I wouldn't have become an alcoholic. I would have never used drugs. I cried daily about my situation, all the while thinking, "poor poor me". How was I so unlucky? Why did everyone treat me so poorly. As my Twelve Step program states, I began making a list of all those who had ever harmed or upset me. When I say all, I mean ALL, anything you can remember. The process started out slowly. I decided for me it would be easier to group my memories by person. I started with my Mother. I then spread outward, to the rest of my immediate family, and then friends etc. . As I wrote, I started to feel the emotions all over again which triggered more memories. My inventory started to take shape. My goal was to make at least four