"Humility is not thinking less of yourself, it is thinking of yourself less." ~ C.S. Lewis I had the concept of humility backwards when I was active in my drinking. I had this idea that If I let people take what ever they wanted from me, emotional, financial or physically, that I was the "better" person. That is not humility, it is low self-esteem. I could never figure out why I would always get the short end of the stick when I was nice to people. I would give anybody the shirt off my back. "Anybody" was the problem. I had a very distorted view of myself, my self esteem was at an all time low. I drank more to try to numb the emotions I felt about myself. Maybe I was thinking that If I failed in one area, I could surely make it up somehow someway... some distorted backwards karma idea. I thought If I was overly generous, that people wouldn't see me as an alcoholic. They would see me as a loving person who just had some bad luck ev...
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